
I'm in a dilemma. It seems like I change what I want to do everyday based on what's going to be the right decision.
I'm a junior at Hunter in NYC majoring in nursing, or trying to. The program is designed so that you take all your pre reqs the first 2 years then apply spring of your sophomore year and then 2 do years clinical and graduate with your bsn. It's really competitive, and I don't know if it's working out.
I couldn't apply in the spring sophomore year because I had to retake a couple classes, they won't even consider your app unless you have at least a C in all your pre reqs and a min. 2.9 GPA, though they say not to even apply unless you have a 3.6.
My GPA is a 2.6. I'm not done retaking what I have to retake so when I do it will be a little higher. Still, the nursing program won't replace the lower grade, they will average the 2, so I'm thinking by the time I apply my gpa is going to be a 3.0...still a long shot for me to get in. Your application is 50% cumulative GPA and 50% your score on the NLN.
And here's the thing. I really want to be a mental health nurse practitioner. I don't see myself working in a hospital. I think of myself doing counseling for the most part. The whole reason I want to be a nurse practitioner is so I can have the hollistic medical background and also to be able to prescribe if needed...though the bulk of what I WANT to do is more counseling/psychology based. Also, I want to work in an urban setting. Maybe a rehabilitation center for people recovering from drug addicition and substance abuse, possibly a jail or prison for women or incarcerated youth. On that measure.
I just want to be a mental health nurse practitioner so I can go into it with the max. education possible..I think that's important. This way I can take all things into account when helping people and my knowledge and resources won't be as limited as they might be if I was to just be a counselor, for instance.
So, I don't know what to do. I don't want to transfer schools this late in the game. I was thinking of declaring my major at Hunter in urban studies, while completing my nursing pre-reqs. This way I could graduate on time and still have taken all the nursing pre reqs..only I wouldn't be in the program and have clinicals. Then I was thinking of applying to a nurse practitioner program for people who have a non-nursing bachelors.
Honestly, this seemed like the smartest approach given that I am not so great in science, AND the fact that it might just better suit my interests. I'd much rather major in urban studies than nursing as far as my interest go. It's just that solely a degree in urban studies would never allow me to do what I want to do. I need the nursing componenet, or at least the mental health nurse practitioner component.
So, I did a search for mental health nurse practitioner programs for people with a non-nursing bachelors, thinking I had it all figured out. I felt really confident about doing it this way...until I realized the only schools that really offer these types of degrees are university of rochester, seton hall university, and upenn. I live in NYC and would like to continue going to school here, but PA and NJ are possibilities as well.
Rochester is all the way upstate, I'd have a lengthy commute to seton hall, and I don't think my 2.6 gpa from Hunter is getting me anywhere near UPenn. Additionally, all three of these schools are private and expensive.
I really don't know what to do. I thought there would be way more choices. It seems like there are so many types of nursing programs for so many types of degrees, I was shocked to see that these were the only 3 close to me offering this degree. Does anyone else know of any more mental health nurse practitioner programs for non-nursing majors?
Otherwise, I'm stuck. Otherwise I should maybe transfer to another school where I can complete my BSN...if only because that will at least allow me to chose from a lot more schools, there are way more MHNP programs for people who complete their bsn in nursing.
But sometimes I think the reason I'm not doing well is because I'm not passionate about this stuff. I try, really hard, knowing that I have to do well in these classes in order to get to where I want to be, and to do with what I want...to get to the stuff I really AM passionate about. But nursing is a really big commitment and I don't know if it can be a stepping stone to where I want to get to anymore.
I'm not doing that great in my classes. I'm doing okay, but I'm used to being a really good student. I feel like my self esteem is lowered because I'm not doing as well as I want. I also work full time doing medical billing so I'm always stressed about studying and the demands of the difficult nursing pre req classes. I try to balance it out by still taking electives of things I'm interested in, like a class on aids or one on prison systems, but that's expensive if it's not going to be what my degree is in, and it's more time and more work.
I'm not a lazy person. I've always worked really hard. I just hate putting my energy somewhere when I don't even have a clear vision anymore of where I should be going. And I think it's much easier to motivate yourself when you have a clear plan. The more I don't meet the goals I set for myself, the less clear my plan becomes, and the less motivated I feel to attempt the work because I feel like it's all becoming so far away. I'm really overwhelmed. On top of that my dad keeps wanting to know if I'm going to graduate on time because pretty soon it's going to be time to pay off my two $10,000 private loans I too out for my first 2 years of college. This also makes me feel like I have to figure something out quick.
I always say I know what I want to DO. I know the population I want to work with and what I want to accomplish while I'm there. I just don't know the best way for me to get there, given my strengths, weaknesses, and interests.
Any advice is greatly appreciated.